Concidering the situation, I'm doing pretty well. I'm quite a happy person at the moment! Had been dealing with some troubles of years past (Namely bullying and feeling unworthy) that had been catching up with me all of a sudden, but that's behind me again for a while. Dealing with some troubles in a friendship, but that's solved as well (<3 And had some great time talking to my Rei-chan all the while).

My grandfather died the night from Thursday to Friday, which was really ironic, because Friday was a real party day for me, it's a day all last years in Belgium celebrate, called 100 days. It celebrates the 100 days before the last exam, and we all dress up, get drunk, and have fun. So it was strange, but I had a great time anyway. We started with a church moment, so that was my time of the day to think about my grandfather.
After that I had a lot of fun. My love life isn't non-existant at the moment, just really strange. There's a guy I might like, but I'm not sure. He's my age, the silent type, not what's usually my type of guy, which is why I probably like him =P. He came to talk to me yesterday, but he was drunk. Still, I took some advantage of the situation XD. I had my arm around him and held his hand, but it was all purely simple.
At the same time, we have a new history teacher. He's supercute, looks and personality wise, but it's not like I love him. =P It's just fun to laugh with my friends about him. Like he has to shut down the beamer, and I'm the first to help him. When we get out of class then, we start laughing and say silly stuff. It's fun and light, really nice!

So yeah, my life is really strange at the moment. The family met at my grandfather's house today, and it was, obviously, strange. We were discussing his funeral et all, and he was in his coffin in the room next to us. I saw him, but strangely enough I didn't cry, I was close sometimes, but I'm not really sad yet. The funeral is Wednesday, so it might still come. But it was a nice day, really strange, like the rest at the moment. The grandchildren will have a moment at the funeral of 10 minutes to do something. My nephew is going to play the piano, my brother and youngest nephew are going to tell some texts, and after that there's going to be dia's with pictures of my grandfather. Everyone had to do something to do, and my favourite nephew and I selected the pictures, it was really nice, I haven't had such a nice time with him in a while. We all got to see these pictures of my mother and her brothers when she was young, it was so special, we usually don't talk about that time, I haven't seen much pictures either. That's what I want to be different for my children, I do want to share my life with them later. I know almost nothing about my father's, even though I love him very much, I sometimes regret that.
Anyway, it was nice, surreal even. Hearing all those stories and talking about the man, it almost seemed to come out of a movie.

Signing out,
Lonneke.