So, update on my life I guess x3. Don't expect anything too bright, although now I'm doing quite well again.

School started again last week. Had an awful first week. Especially an awful weekend, which I was going trough mostly depressed. First hit came when I was sitting in front of the tv watching a local music channel, which was showing Damien Rice's 9 Crimes, which left me baffled. Watch here, it's beautiful:
9 Crimes videoclip

Then I came back from a very awful party that night and just felt generally awful. For no apparant reason apparently. Well anyway, I'm fine now. Jealous, but fine.

Why jealous? Ah well, that needs a part of my background to explain. 4 years ago I fell in love with a boy, who is 4 years older than me. I was still a child, but it was my first big love, and no-one I've ever really loved was ever able to match up to him. So yeah, he's still the 'perfect' man for me in my eyes, and I'd often sigh about it to my offline friends, or cherish some hope that he'd someday start seeing me as a woman, and not the little girl from back then (although making stupid mistakes and decisions right in front of him doesn't help that, probably). Yes, well, there's this good girl friend of him, whom he liked, but they never followed upon it. And yes, well, they are growing towards each other again. So I guess I feel rejected. Because I've been standing by the sidelines for four years now, waiting for him, and she's getting him. =3 I just have to start accepting that.